i feel sad!! i hate this feeling of depression! i have always been very confident and never cried myself to sleep! However, i miss my big boy so much i hate it! i can't believe i have been online for 2 days hopeing he is going to come online! i have not had any contact with him since wednesday and i have not heard his voice since my birthday! i hate that he was not here on my special day... oh well thats life! Life is not fare as soon as you realize it you will be one with yourself and the universe, like Miss Cronin my 6th grade teacher always said! its very true! And i hate it! I have never thought i would feel this way for someone, i was always very independant now i feel like i need him next to me!
I have put a front to everyone like its ok that pedro is not here, but in reality i feel lonely and vulnerable! I went to all these places for my birthday but indeed i did not have fun as i wished i would have. I just pretended like i had the time of my life because i did not want maritza to feel bad about all the plans! I would just think of pedro the whole time! it really blows!!!!!!! well there was points where i did have fun but for the most part NO!!!
I really love him with all my heart! I want to be with him for the rest of my life. I guess distance will make our love grow stronger!!!
About Me
- Lambda Lady 3
- San Diego, California, United States
- I am a third student at SDSU! i am currently working on a BA in liberal studies in hope of becoming a wonderful teacher!
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"I really love him with all my heart! I want to be with him for the rest of my life. I guess distance will make our love grow stronger!!!"
i hope so too, i hope distance will make our hearts start beating for each other one more time... i hope time will serenade all the sadness we felt at different points in our lives, and i hope that one day, we will find each other n never let go... its too painful to imagine life without you... its too painful to realize that you are gone...
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